More than friends but less than lovers ♥

Finally, we entered into the 12^th date of 12^th month of 12^th year of this century. And clock is too showing 12-12 am when I am about to start this post which I myself doesn't know what I am gonna write in it.

11^th December, 2012

The sun was on time & shinning on his usual place. But I was on my couch, fully awaken but pretending to be sleepy under blanket with mobile in hand. I was waiting for her text, a morning wish which become a insulin for my senses to react everyday or I should say reason for me to wake up, my eyes are adamant to start to a day with her text, my ears are deeply waiting for the message tone & my hands are just hoping for the mobile to vibrate as early as possible. Time for to feel alive, message received.

(One message received)

Ayesha – Good Morning :)

Me- Good morning :) :)

I wait for message every day, just to confirm is she ok, is she all right or in short is she is living ♥

This is how I transformed from virtual dreaming to the textual reality daily. This is how I woke up every day.

Although, college is off for preparatory leave for exams. This was the reason I was still on my bed starting a day with shinning sun in the top to the vibration in my mobile phone.

(I know, I am terribly bad shayar, still I do manage have a romantic shayari every morning only for her ♥)

Me- “Ab karte hain naye din ke shuruwaat

         Mil jo gya tere choone ka ehsas

         Aise hee karte rehna tum mere dino ko roshan

        Tere msg ke baad hee aata hai meri aakhon mein motion “

Ayesha-  :) :)

I don’t know what kinda relation it is , but we haven’t named it as love , we haven’t fall into relationships , we haven’t promise to be a part each other’s life for forever. But we do care each other as lovers do, we do have endless talks as lovers do & we can’t stay without each other as lovers.

In short, what I can name it as ‘’More than the best friends but less than lovers.’’   If we are really soul mates then no one can part us in any way. And if we aren’t the ‘one made for each other’, any other guy could steal her from my wildest dreams. So, I dunno wanna pollute such a divine word i.e LOVE ♥. I am one woman man, so just waiting for right time.

It’s again my destiny which is overpowering my dwindling luck, completely blank for next move, now just waiting for what is pre-written in destiny rule book.

Memories of Past ♥

How can I forget you,,,

How can I forgive you,,,

How can I make you smile

When you don’t talk to me even for a while

You always promised to walk with me every mile

But you weren’t there even for a smile!!!

I wish I could erase her memories from my mind but till now Almighty GOD hasn’t made any system to do so. A guilt of past which may effect my future!!

Few meetings with her, makes me one who can write about her for rest of my life.

Life has taken sharp turns till now, but still my life hasn’t moved a bit. I am still thinking about her. I am still finding my mistakes which I didn’t do in order to prove her right.

I am still finding the reason, what had happened to us!!  But nothing successful came out.

That’s the story of every young person, who fails in his first love. Even I do have the interesting story. Story of emotions , Story of love & Story of luck.

Newly graduated from school entered college now with new hopes, new desires & with new friends. Haven’t thought even I could fall into prey of love with her eyes, her charisma, her personality, her aura, her looks, her imagination; they always make me feel jittery.

Time never is the same, during that period my heart forays with my mind to prepare a strategy for first talk & finally my heart succeeded & I was ready to talk with physical beauty for the first time after 6 months of colleges had already passed.

I used to visit the cafeteria ,just to enjoy drizzling beauty of her!

So, finally day was decided, venue got the nod by my mind authority checks & was ready with plan for my first move.

Being a non-believer of astrology, numerology & Taro cards, still I have gone though all just in order to confirm that everything was going in right direction or not.

Finally making so much of preparation, taking all the good lucks from near & dear ones, visiting all the temples, gurudwars & churches near by just in order confirm my first victory over my self just for a perfect start of a talk with dazzling beauty.

Finally the day arrived, clock strikes 12 pm looks like even clock is greeting me with ‘NAMASTE’. I never felt so different that day. Reached the desired venue, Cafeteria too packed with charming smiles , Felt like happiness everywhere seems as everyone has already know about my plan & they are here only to cheer me up.

So, took a seat near by & glued my eyes to the entrance. Soon my wait gets over & pink dressed angel arrived. A look towards her makes me forget for what purpose I am here.

She looked very happy ,just promising me that my first talk could be successful. But as it was my story , how GOD can plan it so smoothly!! 

She wasn't alone this time , she was coming  along with another boy not knowing who he was? .Rumours are high ,Boy like my angel ,have a feeling for her. But i didn't pay attention to that .i was focused towards my goal .

They  entered slowly towards the cafeteria , i can watch them from my near by window. once they  stepped inside the hall..Here my destiny comes into act. Suddenly cafeteria went dark only light focusing both of them. Then boy whom i never want to enter my story becomes the antagonist of my story & perposes her ''Will you be my only & forever angel for rest of my life?'' Without thinking for second ,she said ''YES''.As she was
born for that moment only.

 i was stunned , What had happened to me!! How angel of my life  migrated to  become another's angel  

in front of me. Here again , my destiny overcomes my dwindling luck! 

What the F**k ! what the f**K!! what the f**K!!!

 At that tym i came to know , Heart doesn't had feelings , it can't love , it can't think . iT's just a medical organ which supports us to live. 

Love -The sweet illusion ♥ ♥ ♥

Hi Blogdosts!!

Learning comes from an experience & Life is a school in which everyone fails with Dead End. Today what we are, how we behave, kinda personality we have all because of endless experience learning from limited life that we had live till of now. So, no one is God or Devil it’s all because of his past experiences. By the time you end reading it, you will be 3 minutes older from what you are now so I made the best effort to make it worth.

Sometimes life seems completely unpredictable , Firstly we ran for something , wanna achieve that thing so hard such that nothing can comparable to  that need & once we achieved it it has lost it’s value. And the hunt for new lucrative target begins. Our life seems bounded into working for priceless things & then converting into no price.

                                                     

There might be a time in everyone’s life when someone wants you so badly that he doesn’t wanna miss a single second to be with you. He tried every good or bad move, intentionally or unintentionally to be with you. And once he realized that you are part of his life, suddenly he stops bothering you.

In today’s digital world, where becoming a friend is just one click away & it hardly takes 5 seconds to change relationship status.How any one can expect to find true love & Friendship?

Cigarette of Love was burnt in initial centaury  in which love was flew away in smoke leaving behind the ashes of smoke to digital centaury as a proof of it’s existence.

In the world of realistic people where love is chased as an asset and even people will invest their own love asset in you to gain their needs. We the people come as an individual & will go as an individual, trust me even we can lead it as individual.

At last ,I Believe  love is just an illusion , Some of you  might believe or some of you might not .For those who believes love is God…………..jst wanna say…Come out of the ILLUSION.