Gurgaon: Dreams Turned into Reality

Ayesha has re-entered in my life!

Now we are again connected through whatsapp, face book & Twitter! .

After two months of trauma that I had, now even things were trying  back to be normal.

Two things, which are even same as before i.e. first she is listening to me & second I am talking to her over phone every time! Things were changing so fast between us, making me feel more tensed! Doesn't know what gonna happen in future !

It must be mine bad luck that things went pretty wrong before but destiny has shown his light today.

3^rd March, 2013

Finally she invited me to meet in her new city –GURGAON!

Date Decided-4^th March

Time- Maximum time that I can spend (Actually she has taken off from her office)

Location Settled – Confirmed many times!

Plans were reassured as long as we can discuss it over phone!

This was the day I wanted, to pass it quickly!

4^th March, 2013 (Only DAY of my life, whose waiting could be synchronized with suffering)

As clock strikes 12, I was hell excited that Instead of setting an ALARM I put up the COUNTDOWN  TIMER of 5 hrs, because I have to wake up early . Even though countdown time was running, I still checked it in every 5 minutes in order to make sure my mobile shouldn’t run out of battery.

I was awake at sharp 4-55 am, ahead of time schedule!

I didn’t want Luck to interfere with my any of the schedule!  Then I simply put off my Timer!

It was time to get ready & finally I reached the desired location at sharp 10-30!

And it was Time to smile, it was time to cheer, it was time which makes me numb for almost a minute! Finally I saw her with every corner from my eye, she was waiting for me! It was the first time; she did wait for me because earlier it was used to be my task to do so!

She was looking so different today making me feels uncomfortable about my looks!  (How can she do it to me, I was perfect too!)

Finally we entered the movie hall as decided & enjoyed the worst movie of mine till now! But never mind, sometimes it’s a company who makes you to feel good not the movie!

After that great meal, we talked so much that even Sun was changing its direction towards west! I was wondering how much I waited for this special day & why the day is ditching me …by taking the sun away so fast!

Atlast it was time to listen the GOOD BYE from her, but I didn’t responded! And she was gone & leaving me behind into her memories

Memories of today or plans for future …I still couldn’t figure out ………………….

Escapism From love ♥

Welcome to the world of Escapism, Where everyone is escaping, some are escaping from situations while others are wanted to escape from the persons.

Since inception, we always tried to escape from time, fear & lot of unpleasant things. . Every action of our, is just an escape from some other action.

Closing your eyes isn’t going to change anything, Nothing gonna disappear just because you don’t wanna see it. In fact, Things will be even worse the next time you open your eyes. Only a coward closes his eyes thinking he might be able to escape from the problem. Closing your eyes & plugging up your ears won’t make Time either to stand still or pass it quickly.

The best way to escape from a problem is to solve it!!

As the dictionary defines it, “Escapism – Diversion from reality” or can be inferred as doing lot of unpleasant things which gives you distraction from doing pleasant things.

In a usual habit of escaping, even we had also started to escape from the things we like, from the person we want to hang around even from the love!

Everyone needs to escape sometimes, retreating into somebody else life is just as nearly living like a beggar because you don’t wanna be king anymore!!

More than friends but less than lovers ♥

Finally, we entered into the 12^th date of 12^th month of 12^th year of this century. And clock is too showing 12-12 am when I am about to start this post which I myself doesn't know what I am gonna write in it.

11^th December, 2012

The sun was on time & shinning on his usual place. But I was on my couch, fully awaken but pretending to be sleepy under blanket with mobile in hand. I was waiting for her text, a morning wish which become a insulin for my senses to react everyday or I should say reason for me to wake up, my eyes are adamant to start to a day with her text, my ears are deeply waiting for the message tone & my hands are just hoping for the mobile to vibrate as early as possible. Time for to feel alive, message received.

(One message received)

Ayesha – Good Morning :)

Me- Good morning :) :)

I wait for message every day, just to confirm is she ok, is she all right or in short is she is living ♥

This is how I transformed from virtual dreaming to the textual reality daily. This is how I woke up every day.

Although, college is off for preparatory leave for exams. This was the reason I was still on my bed starting a day with shinning sun in the top to the vibration in my mobile phone.

(I know, I am terribly bad shayar, still I do manage have a romantic shayari every morning only for her ♥)

Me- “Ab karte hain naye din ke shuruwaat

         Mil jo gya tere choone ka ehsas

         Aise hee karte rehna tum mere dino ko roshan

        Tere msg ke baad hee aata hai meri aakhon mein motion “

Ayesha-  :) :)

I don’t know what kinda relation it is , but we haven’t named it as love , we haven’t fall into relationships , we haven’t promise to be a part each other’s life for forever. But we do care each other as lovers do, we do have endless talks as lovers do & we can’t stay without each other as lovers.

In short, what I can name it as ‘’More than the best friends but less than lovers.’’   If we are really soul mates then no one can part us in any way. And if we aren’t the ‘one made for each other’, any other guy could steal her from my wildest dreams. So, I dunno wanna pollute such a divine word i.e LOVE ♥. I am one woman man, so just waiting for right time.

It’s again my destiny which is overpowering my dwindling luck, completely blank for next move, now just waiting for what is pre-written in destiny rule book.

Days before love

Hi blogdosts!

Finally I am here again, to ruin your data of fast running internet .Thanks for coming here!

As you are here, so I make you sure, this post must be worth reading!

Before I initiate my post, I wanna fall you in fabricated situation of love, where you like a person & even you are sure of liking from yours partner too. You are hanging around with her, enjoying endless dates, watching movie on corner seats, recharging your mobile accounts in midnights just to say to good night to her, asking endless favors from her & Even you turned into a “Shayar” for her.

In short, you find yourself completely tuned up with her. And then your mind have train of thoughts, asks you numerous questions where avoiding one could be considered as favoritism to other. Is it one whom GOD has sent for you to write your entire life with her or is it one, whom I will forget like any chapter of life.

Then chain of questions, am I too victim of love or am I really enjoying my bachelorhood like others?

Do I really like her or Am I like any other jerk?

Do I really have feelings for her or should I consider myself Stud, which can make any girl to make her around?

Should I stick on that girl or should I wait for another Best girl to be the princess of heart again?

Do I propose her or Wait to let her propose me?

These are the days before love. Where we consider ourselves as “Brainless genes” .And we are unable to take any decision.

This is the story of mine, where I find myself stuck in various things.

Days before love are the best period of life, where you enjoy the same, what other is enjoying being in love with no commitment.If I follow the conventionally theory of love then I must have listen to violin ,sound of love once I saw her but I ant’s enjoying the same.

Now, I must request scientists to invent something like love meter, where anyone can check, how much you love your partner. Even it should be able to check sustainability of it , so that we can check how long will it be carried away!!

Off course, I am living with her but how can anyone say am I living only for her?

I know I am enjoying with her but how anyone can predict my meaning of enjoyment is her?

May be I could consider this thing as love, What if tomorrow it fled away!!

Huh!!
Creating mess in the mind!!

When you are unable to answer some questions , it's better to left it unanswered!!

 Another Attempt to fiction!!!

Memories of Past ♥

How can I forget you,,,

How can I forgive you,,,

How can I make you smile

When you don’t talk to me even for a while

You always promised to walk with me every mile

But you weren’t there even for a smile!!!

I wish I could erase her memories from my mind but till now Almighty GOD hasn’t made any system to do so. A guilt of past which may effect my future!!

Few meetings with her, makes me one who can write about her for rest of my life.

Life has taken sharp turns till now, but still my life hasn’t moved a bit. I am still thinking about her. I am still finding my mistakes which I didn’t do in order to prove her right.

I am still finding the reason, what had happened to us!!  But nothing successful came out.

That’s the story of every young person, who fails in his first love. Even I do have the interesting story. Story of emotions , Story of love & Story of luck.

Newly graduated from school entered college now with new hopes, new desires & with new friends. Haven’t thought even I could fall into prey of love with her eyes, her charisma, her personality, her aura, her looks, her imagination; they always make me feel jittery.

Time never is the same, during that period my heart forays with my mind to prepare a strategy for first talk & finally my heart succeeded & I was ready to talk with physical beauty for the first time after 6 months of colleges had already passed.

I used to visit the cafeteria ,just to enjoy drizzling beauty of her!

So, finally day was decided, venue got the nod by my mind authority checks & was ready with plan for my first move.

Being a non-believer of astrology, numerology & Taro cards, still I have gone though all just in order to confirm that everything was going in right direction or not.

Finally making so much of preparation, taking all the good lucks from near & dear ones, visiting all the temples, gurudwars & churches near by just in order confirm my first victory over my self just for a perfect start of a talk with dazzling beauty.

Finally the day arrived, clock strikes 12 pm looks like even clock is greeting me with ‘NAMASTE’. I never felt so different that day. Reached the desired venue, Cafeteria too packed with charming smiles , Felt like happiness everywhere seems as everyone has already know about my plan & they are here only to cheer me up.

So, took a seat near by & glued my eyes to the entrance. Soon my wait gets over & pink dressed angel arrived. A look towards her makes me forget for what purpose I am here.

She looked very happy ,just promising me that my first talk could be successful. But as it was my story , how GOD can plan it so smoothly!! 

She wasn't alone this time , she was coming  along with another boy not knowing who he was? .Rumours are high ,Boy like my angel ,have a feeling for her. But i didn't pay attention to that .i was focused towards my goal .

They  entered slowly towards the cafeteria , i can watch them from my near by window. once they  stepped inside the hall..Here my destiny comes into act. Suddenly cafeteria went dark only light focusing both of them. Then boy whom i never want to enter my story becomes the antagonist of my story & perposes her ''Will you be my only & forever angel for rest of my life?'' Without thinking for second ,she said ''YES''.As she was
born for that moment only.

 i was stunned , What had happened to me!! How angel of my life  migrated to  become another's angel  

in front of me. Here again , my destiny overcomes my dwindling luck! 

What the F**k ! what the f**K!! what the f**K!!!

 At that tym i came to know , Heart doesn't had feelings , it can't love , it can't think . iT's just a medical organ which supports us to live. 

Love -The sweet illusion ♥ ♥ ♥

Hi Blogdosts!!

Learning comes from an experience & Life is a school in which everyone fails with Dead End. Today what we are, how we behave, kinda personality we have all because of endless experience learning from limited life that we had live till of now. So, no one is God or Devil it’s all because of his past experiences. By the time you end reading it, you will be 3 minutes older from what you are now so I made the best effort to make it worth.

Sometimes life seems completely unpredictable , Firstly we ran for something , wanna achieve that thing so hard such that nothing can comparable to  that need & once we achieved it it has lost it’s value. And the hunt for new lucrative target begins. Our life seems bounded into working for priceless things & then converting into no price.

                                                     

There might be a time in everyone’s life when someone wants you so badly that he doesn’t wanna miss a single second to be with you. He tried every good or bad move, intentionally or unintentionally to be with you. And once he realized that you are part of his life, suddenly he stops bothering you.

In today’s digital world, where becoming a friend is just one click away & it hardly takes 5 seconds to change relationship status.How any one can expect to find true love & Friendship?

Cigarette of Love was burnt in initial centaury  in which love was flew away in smoke leaving behind the ashes of smoke to digital centaury as a proof of it’s existence.

In the world of realistic people where love is chased as an asset and even people will invest their own love asset in you to gain their needs. We the people come as an individual & will go as an individual, trust me even we can lead it as individual.

At last ,I Believe  love is just an illusion , Some of you  might believe or some of you might not .For those who believes love is God…………..jst wanna say…Come out of the ILLUSION.

TEAM ANNA @ Rohtak

IST JULY,2011

 A day which comes with the alarm clock asking us to awake with only half days left of a year. We had successfully completed half year.

Like any other day I was the culprit of Laziness, which doesn’t allow me to awake before 10 am. First words coming to ears were from my mother’s that Team Anna is visiting Rohtak at 2 PM. During peak summer day & peak time of day at 2 PM answer of anyone could be NO.  Who wants to ruin their time in hottest chimney of SUN outhere?

 Now I had made my mind I will attend the Team Anna meet & proudest thing was my mother also expects the same from me. Today no matters what kinda person I was in past & what will be person I will be in future but the thing that matters me most  I was proudest son of my mother at least for today.Second thing I did was forward this information to all of my friends with knowing the fact that hardly any of my friends will come.

2 pm @ meeting spot

 

Finally I was there on time at meeting spot & was moved to see the crowd over there.

Crowd not for the  purpose of entertainment, not for fun but for the nation. People ranging every age group were at common sight with the slogan of ‘VANDE MATARAM’

The scene was beyond my explanation when I saw 6 yr boy along with her sister were protesting along their parents when temperature was encroaching 45 degree Celsius. I felt ashamed where were I till now , where was my nation love till now

, where were my responsibility toward nation till now?

 

I saw the people of over sixty years of age , some of them I recognized Rich enough to live their remaining time in corruption-stricken India , still came here for a nation .  I witnessed the females having Indian flag in hand & vande mataram to lips.What a touching scene it was !!

Finally there was announcement, Arvind kejriwal could be here in no time. Arvind kejriwal ,ex-income tax officer  if wants who could lived his live comfortably with a high paid job  . A income tax officer can earn much enough even for his coming generation. But still he chose to fight for us , fight for nation .He is doing such efforts for us, left his job, left his home, ready to die for a country and Can’t we show our support to him ?

 

Finally he was there , to saw him, feel the presence of  him were a extraordinary feeling in itself. After entry of Arvind kejriwal , crowd was in motion again . only words which can heard at that time were “ Anna g snagarsh karo , Hum tumhare saath hain “

Full patriotic feeling among everyone, and to witness a crowd where no one is thinking about their money, their lives , their relatives only Nation was the priority was something i could never felt till now.

Then I  heard the thoughts of Arvind kejriwal along with  only my not expecting friend,one who came there .

The things said by Arvind  entered everyone’s heart. And he asked Rohtak’s people to come in numbers on 25^th july at jantar mantar to show support against Government, against corruption, against govt. Lokpall bill.

Today,  Day itself forces me think what I have done for my country ?

My motive to write this was only to make you think….

WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR YOUR COUNTRY ?